THESE ARE SOME OF THE PAGES TAKEN FROM A GUY'S DIARY WHO FINALLY ACHIEVED HIS GOAL HE WAS UNABLE TO CRACK THE IIT FOR THE FIRST TIME BUT HE NEVER GAVE UP.LETS SEE WHAT HE HAS WRITTEN IN HIS DIARIES.
25th May, 2010,
Dear Diary,
Today, the IIT-JEE 2010 results were released, and some of the bitterest words of my life flashed before my eyes, “We regret to inform you that you have not been selected”. I was shattered and felt a blank nothingness in my mind. I did not know what to do. A childhood dream of mine broken down just in jiffy. I felt the hand of my mom on my shoulder trying to console me, I just shrugged it off in irritation. I heard some kind words of consolation coming from my dad, but with an air of insecurity and arrogance in my voice, I shouted at them insanely. Then my cell phone buzzed and a message from one of my best buddies flashed, “ Dude, what's gone is gone man! wanna go to BBQ nation tonight? am throwing a treat bro!” That was when thoughts of bunking classes with friends, freaking and hanging around with the same “so-called” best buddy, skipping my hours of study just to help this guy out of a moral depression. Is he actually my best friend?…then why did not he stop me from going on the wrong path? Why did not he warn me that I was digging my own grave? Why did he not tell me, what I was doing is wrong?….WHY??? But nevertheless, I shall go to his party, after all he has made it! he deserved it!
7th June, 2010,
Dear Diary,
After almost a fortnight of depression, fights, arrogance, loneliness and insecurity, I have finally made a decision. I am just going to close the chapter that was, and start a new one and perhaps the happiest thing that has happened to me over the last fifteen days is that, parents are showing an immense support to me on my decision. They are showing incredible faith on my decision when I myself am filled with questions about my potential. But, now I have to do this for them. Finally, I am having a reality check that they are the real guiding lamps of my dark life. The souls with whom I fought, ignored, retorted with, they were, are and will always be the biggest supporters of my life. As clouds of uncertainty and regret surround me, sleep conquers me...perhaps my last peaceful sleep till I reach my goal…
28th November, 2010,
Dear Diary,
I had been really busy so could not write to you but I know that you would understand that the mission I am set on is demanding. Working as a repeater, it is very difficult to keep up the tempo of working hard. The tensions that hover around your mind are double but the charm of studying is even more. Now, I am studying not to crack any exam, rather I am studying because I want to know more, I want to understand more, I want to realize the depth of knowledge. Today, I am feeling really elated, as I had planned to finish off my syllabus by today, and for the first time in last three years, I could stick to my deadline. I have asked my parents to take me somewhere for a couple of days, before I carry on with revisions and tests. So we are going to a nearby hill station called Mahabaleshwar and am damn excited for it.
8th January, 2011,
Dear Diary,
The first results of a full mock test came out today, and I was really disappointed with myself as the results are not at all up to the mark and was feeling really demoralized and low on confidence, as it's just another three months left. That was when, my dad came to me, and asked me to sustain the self confidence in myself, and to just proceed. Quite a vocal tonic it was, perhaps one of the most inspiring words I have ever heard. It has acted on me, and I am back on track. Analyzing my weaknesses, I have decided, I still got the chance and I can still make it.
15th February, 2011,
Dear Diary,
Finally there goes an outstanding paper and seems my confidence is somewhat restored. Now, it seems the decision to take a drop, was one of the best ones I have ever taken in my life, all thanks to my parents. I have just started expecting much more from myself and I know I can stand up to them. As the days fly, tension mounts, and this surge of confidence was much needed at this hour. I have started studying with an entire new spirit, It is just another month and half, I have almost made it to the end.
25th March , 2011,
Dear Diary,
Another fifteen days to go. Mixed feelings are racing through my mind. Tension, relief, insecurity, surges of confidence, some times dreadfully lonely…I do not know what to write. Just that I am damn puzzled. I started with my final revision today. I know everything, if I cannot do this, then no-one can, that is what I kept saying to myself.
I WILL DO IT!!!!
10Th April, 2011,
Dear Diary,
Nothing much to write in, not touching books, cell phone switched off, am cut off from the outside world, sleeping early…Tomorrow is THE BIG DAY!!….
11th April,2011,
Dear Diary,
Relief!!! I can actually feel this word when I say that. I had the most amazing six hours of my life today while giving the paper. I really relished each and every second of it, each and every question of the paper. It is finally over. I do not know what the results would be. I do not want to know. I do not expect anything from myself anymore. I am ready to accept whatever the result is now, so right now all I want to do is relish the moments and sleep in peace for once.
25th May, 2011,
Dear Diary,
One year ago on this same day, I had read the bitterest words of my life ever, and today, I have the most contrasting experience….what flashed before me eyes gave me goose bumps…”YOU HAVE BEEN SELECTED, CONGRATULATIONS!!”…unmatchable feeling…phones ringing all around…congratulation messages flying around…..this is what I had worked relentlessly for three years, especially the last year….This year was an important chapter of my life and has taught me something that I would remember throughout my life!!!…..IIT!! Here I come!!!
25th May, 2010,
Dear Diary,
Today, the IIT-JEE 2010 results were released, and some of the bitterest words of my life flashed before my eyes, “We regret to inform you that you have not been selected”. I was shattered and felt a blank nothingness in my mind. I did not know what to do. A childhood dream of mine broken down just in jiffy. I felt the hand of my mom on my shoulder trying to console me, I just shrugged it off in irritation. I heard some kind words of consolation coming from my dad, but with an air of insecurity and arrogance in my voice, I shouted at them insanely. Then my cell phone buzzed and a message from one of my best buddies flashed, “ Dude, what's gone is gone man! wanna go to BBQ nation tonight? am throwing a treat bro!” That was when thoughts of bunking classes with friends, freaking and hanging around with the same “so-called” best buddy, skipping my hours of study just to help this guy out of a moral depression. Is he actually my best friend?…then why did not he stop me from going on the wrong path? Why did not he warn me that I was digging my own grave? Why did he not tell me, what I was doing is wrong?….WHY??? But nevertheless, I shall go to his party, after all he has made it! he deserved it!
7th June, 2010,
Dear Diary,
After almost a fortnight of depression, fights, arrogance, loneliness and insecurity, I have finally made a decision. I am just going to close the chapter that was, and start a new one and perhaps the happiest thing that has happened to me over the last fifteen days is that, parents are showing an immense support to me on my decision. They are showing incredible faith on my decision when I myself am filled with questions about my potential. But, now I have to do this for them. Finally, I am having a reality check that they are the real guiding lamps of my dark life. The souls with whom I fought, ignored, retorted with, they were, are and will always be the biggest supporters of my life. As clouds of uncertainty and regret surround me, sleep conquers me...perhaps my last peaceful sleep till I reach my goal…
28th November, 2010,
Dear Diary,
I had been really busy so could not write to you but I know that you would understand that the mission I am set on is demanding. Working as a repeater, it is very difficult to keep up the tempo of working hard. The tensions that hover around your mind are double but the charm of studying is even more. Now, I am studying not to crack any exam, rather I am studying because I want to know more, I want to understand more, I want to realize the depth of knowledge. Today, I am feeling really elated, as I had planned to finish off my syllabus by today, and for the first time in last three years, I could stick to my deadline. I have asked my parents to take me somewhere for a couple of days, before I carry on with revisions and tests. So we are going to a nearby hill station called Mahabaleshwar and am damn excited for it.
8th January, 2011,
Dear Diary,
The first results of a full mock test came out today, and I was really disappointed with myself as the results are not at all up to the mark and was feeling really demoralized and low on confidence, as it's just another three months left. That was when, my dad came to me, and asked me to sustain the self confidence in myself, and to just proceed. Quite a vocal tonic it was, perhaps one of the most inspiring words I have ever heard. It has acted on me, and I am back on track. Analyzing my weaknesses, I have decided, I still got the chance and I can still make it.
15th February, 2011,
Dear Diary,
Finally there goes an outstanding paper and seems my confidence is somewhat restored. Now, it seems the decision to take a drop, was one of the best ones I have ever taken in my life, all thanks to my parents. I have just started expecting much more from myself and I know I can stand up to them. As the days fly, tension mounts, and this surge of confidence was much needed at this hour. I have started studying with an entire new spirit, It is just another month and half, I have almost made it to the end.
25th March , 2011,
Dear Diary,
Another fifteen days to go. Mixed feelings are racing through my mind. Tension, relief, insecurity, surges of confidence, some times dreadfully lonely…I do not know what to write. Just that I am damn puzzled. I started with my final revision today. I know everything, if I cannot do this, then no-one can, that is what I kept saying to myself.
I WILL DO IT!!!!
10Th April, 2011,
Dear Diary,
Nothing much to write in, not touching books, cell phone switched off, am cut off from the outside world, sleeping early…Tomorrow is THE BIG DAY!!….
11th April,2011,
Dear Diary,
Relief!!! I can actually feel this word when I say that. I had the most amazing six hours of my life today while giving the paper. I really relished each and every second of it, each and every question of the paper. It is finally over. I do not know what the results would be. I do not want to know. I do not expect anything from myself anymore. I am ready to accept whatever the result is now, so right now all I want to do is relish the moments and sleep in peace for once.
25th May, 2011,
Dear Diary,
One year ago on this same day, I had read the bitterest words of my life ever, and today, I have the most contrasting experience….what flashed before me eyes gave me goose bumps…”YOU HAVE BEEN SELECTED, CONGRATULATIONS!!”…unmatchable feeling…phones ringing all around…congratulation messages flying around…..this is what I had worked relentlessly for three years, especially the last year….This year was an important chapter of my life and has taught me something that I would remember throughout my life!!!…..IIT!! Here I come!!!
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